Loving and Anxiety!

Love is a nasty business in today’s world. It has been developed into an art of deception and emotional manipulation. People no longer say or do what they feel because they feel they may close their “options”. 7 billion people on this planet and how many times you have felt connected to someone. It’s not just pure probability.

Most people just date to make it a social statement that they are lovable because there is no other way to do that. Even friendships have lost their pristine essence. All is corrupted by logic and drama.

And in this world of masked actors if you have anxiety, CONGRATULATIONS! You have a lifetime experience of hell. Maybe you can apply for that new opening for the devil. Lol!

A person with anxiety doesn’t just go with the flow. They are passionate as hell. They don’t even bother communicating with anyone. But if they do, oh boy! They’ll make you think and wonder. They either give it all or stay put. They don’t have a fling. They’ll fall for you with everything they have, don’t break them. Because after you, they have nothing left to build themselves on.

They can’t even maintain a close friendship. Because they give it all again and when the other person doesn’t reciprocate those feelings, it hurts! So they prefer to keep everything inside their head so that they can save themselves some trouble. They cry but you would never see them.

They are a master of disguise! Putting up a strong front. You can never imagine about the darkness that they go through. They will come to help others, always. They will be highly empathetic because they know the pain of being alone. They know how it feels when you have something to share. It can be something sad or maybe a good but never had someone. They can share it with certain people they have, but they are scared about their heart getting weak for them. They’re a mess.

They’ll sense any pain or despair in your voice because they know it. They have mastered this art but you haven’t. And they’ll do anything and everything to make you feel better. Because they know how difficult it is to go through that. They never leave because they know the fear of abandonment.

“The fear of this abandonment forces them to be alone“. Ironical.

And if they do fall for you. If they finally cave to your sweet voice, your warm touch or the safe feeling they get with you, BEWARE! They’ll be a pain in the ass. They will be insecure as hell. They’ll be jealous of your exes even if you’ll be married to them. Because their head is DEVIL’S OWN PLACE. When your mood is off, they’ll annoy the shit out of you by asking about your well-being. They’ll constantly nag. Ask “How are you feeling?” every hour of the day. They won’t leave you alone ever. You have to realize that you’re everything for them. You’re the person who is their best friend, gf/bf and the only person they talk to. You never have to worry about them cheating because they have no one to.

They will be even jealous of your friends. They know it is stupid and they won’t say anything but they are selfish as hell when it comes to you and they don’t want to share you with anyone.

They’ll ask you a thousand time that, “Are you sure about us?”. It’s not that they trust you but they don’t even listen to themselves. It is just impossible for them to believe that someone loves them. After whatever they have been through they think everyone leaves, and you have to really put an effort to make them believe that you’re not going to stay and give them the time.

They can get mad on very silly things. Yes, they fight and argue a lot. They can be very self-destructive during it. Sometimes just to check that how far you gonna bend before you break. BECAUSE EVERYONE CAN LOVE IN PRETTY TIMES, HOW YOU BEHAVE WHEN YOU’RE MAD AT SOMEONE PROVES HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM.

And a fight with them last maximum of 15 minutes because after that the fear of losing you will take over and they’ll do anything to get you talking to them. That’s the worst part too, they’ll do ANYTHING. They just can’t see you mad at them. You can yell and fight. But ignoring kills them by the seconds.

But they’ll love you with such ferocity that it’ll scare you. Many people leave initially because they can’t even take on the intensity. And someone who get past that, they know that they can do a year’s worth of love in a month. They’ll write you letters, make sketches, tell you every day why you’re so special for them, travel for hours just to see for 5 mins, will remember your choices and taste, will never forget to make you feel special on your favorite occasions and save little things as memories, such as bills, balloons and flowers.

And when you leave, know that you have changed their life upside down. They feel alone even when surrounded by a big group of friends. Something good happens, they don’t feel it because they no longer have someone to share. It can take them years to get over a few months relationship. Every time they listen to a song that you recommended, they’ll break down in middle of anywhere. They’ll never listen to it again. Whenever they’ll eat at the place you liked, they’ll choke a little. They’ll keep all your pictures saved because only that can make them live those moments again and at least help them get it out. They’ll be broken and someone can spend a whole day with them and they’ll never know.

Just don’t say things you don’t mean to such a person. Your feelings may be circumstantial but they have given their everything. And when you leave you’re taking away literally everything from them. And if you chose to stay, you’ll be lucky as hell. If you’re just that strong person to make it through their breakdowns they’ll show you a place soo much better.

They’ll take care of your every little need. They’ll never forget to make you feel special. They’ll support you selflessly. And they’ll be committed. And they’ll never ever leave you, come whatever may. Because they believe everything can be fixed and nothing is worth sabotaging a relationship. They’ll do just anything to keep you.

They’re HURRICANES MIXED WITH A LITTLE RAIN.